bobby1933 (bobby1933) wrote,

A Little Under The Weather

I have never felt so tired for so little reason.  For about three weeks now, a cough has interrferred with my sleep to the point where i stagger aimlessly through the day and fall asleep whenever i sid down.
I am keeping my scheduled commitments but i am missing many Al Anon meetings (missing them in every sense of  the wordl

I am treating myself withsudafed and codeine syrup and keep telling myself the cough is subsiding and that i will soon be back to normal.  Today after a seemingly normal night's sleep, i slept through the morning with my face on the dining room table.  I have finally decided that the inactivity is more of a problem than the illness,  whatever it is, so i went for a walk.  It  seems to have helped.  I think i might start feeling better soon.

My mind is a jumble of senseless associations within a fog.  I am hearing voices that are not real and are not making sense.  Am i finally awaking from the illusion that i call the real  world."  That  would be nice, but i  fear otherwise -- and how would  i know?  Anyway the stuff that i thought was solid still feels solid, so, for the time being i will take evidence to the contrary as due to tiredness or dementia.  And maybe i am reading too much Dean Koontz.
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