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After last night's AA meeting it was suggested that i had taken money out of the "seventh tradition" (collection) basket.  A person had seen me take some bills from the basket, but had not seen me put any in.  Then i was reminded by another person that Al Anon members were not invited  to share their stories of "strength and hope" in (this particular?) AA meeting.

My reaction to the first person was basically: "Hey, thanks for trying to keep me honest."  I did not notice any particular emotional reaction to what i could have taken as an  accusation of theft.  I thought that this represented a maturity that i could not  have attained without Al Anon

My reaction to  the  second person was quite different.  While i respect the traditions of each AA and Al Anon group estabishing its own rules guided by its own "group conscience," i felt as though i had violated the sacred but stupid regimine of some religious cult.  That is the feeling that i definitely do not want to have in the places where i am seeking my spiritual awareness and awakening.  Still, i plan to return to this particular meeting and keep my mouth shut.  The rewards of going are greater than the "rewards" of staying away.  A lot of people here seem to be barely clinging to their sobriety and their stories are very valuable to me.
Tonight i met with my Al Anon sponsor at a Denny's and we talked for two hours over dinner and coffee, after which he picked up  the tab.   We discussed my reactions to the  first eleven chapters of the "Big Book" and it was suggested that i read the "Acceptance Prayer" pp,449ff, on my knees, first thing every  morning for the next thirty days.  If i miss a day, i am to start agaIn with day  one.  I smiled and called him my "spiritual director."  He replied that he was telling me what he was told by his sponsor.

A good start!!

Equanimity, joy, loving kindness, and compassion to all and each of you,


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Aug. 24th, 2016 12:07 pm (UTC)
Boy, the on-my-knees part would be hard for me. I would probably get a kneeler. Ah, the luxuries of the rich.
Aug. 24th, 2016 01:22 pm (UTC)
My sponsor is, i think, unable to kneel; and, observing my cane, he asked me if i was able to kneel. Thankfully, i am usually quite able (without suffering leg cramps). Though i would never have admitted this three years ago, i find kneeling both humbling and pleasurable.
Aug. 24th, 2016 01:49 pm (UTC)
I liked it when I it didn't hurt so much. :D
Aug. 24th, 2016 02:41 pm (UTC)
Thief. Cut their feckin' hands off.
Aug. 24th, 2016 03:04 pm (UTC)
Seriously...stuff like that (not to mention being accused of stealing) would put me off and I probably would seek my spirituality elsewhere. I'm glad you're getting something good from it all though.
Aug. 25th, 2016 02:14 am (UTC)
I thought the comment about my taking money from the basket was completely appropriate in terms of what she saw, what she said was for mu benefit and i am gratefup that i could take it that way.

I cannot judge the group conscience of another group, but only contribute to the group conscience of my own group.
Sep. 1st, 2016 02:22 am (UTC)
It turns out that the person who tried to set me right did not know the group conscience of that group.
Aug. 25th, 2016 01:42 am (UTC)
Hmph. I wonder (perhaps unworthily) if "a lot of people barely clinging to their sobriety" says something about the stupid cult regimen of that particular group.

Edited at 2016-08-25 01:43 am (UTC)
Aug. 25th, 2016 02:17 am (UTC)
Yes. I must post something on group conscience.
Sep. 1st, 2016 02:25 am (UTC)
It turns out that the person who tried to "set me right" did not know the group conscience of the group.
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