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Am i a widower?  I guess so.  It happened  over a month (37days!) ago, but the word did not come to me today.  I was a spoise; it was my most important role; it was who i was.  Then, in a few minutes. i wasn't that any more.  But still, in my mind (in my bones?) i was that, i continue to be that.  If i were to say aloud, "i've got to fix Dianne's lunch," anyone hearing me would say i am fantasizing, that i am deluded.  Of course, i believe that if i were to actually prepare a lunch for her it would just sit there on the table until i ate it myself.  If i  live in an illlusion, then parts of that illusion seem more elusory than others.  Arjuna, having learned that the world is an illusion, is instructed ty Krishna to continue to perform his traditional role in that world.  I have never understood Krshn's advice nor Arjuna's ready compliance with it.  Yet i know that refusal to take the illusion  of reality as reality can lead to madness.  The pull of illusion on the corrupted mind and on the ego is so strong that efforts to live outside the illusion literally pull one apart.  Or maybe being real requires a skill or gift (or both) that most of us have not yet acquired.

I wanted to write here about a tradition out of Judaism that posits several levels of realit.  Between God (real reality) and the social and symbolic construction of reality (illusion), there  are other levels of reality: "emanatons" like the soul are less real than God, but more real than "creations" (nature) which are, in turn, more real than what we can percieve with our senses (or their extensions through technology and science).  But my ignorasnce is so great that more thought and research is needed to see if i even want to begin to explore this line.  Sorry.

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amaebi
Jun. 24th, 2016 12:56 am (UTC)
I suspect that, really, the identity of Widowed is for those who are a spouses and who are also bereaved. Psychically speaking.
bobby1933
Jun. 24th, 2016 06:55 am (UTC)
Or maybe like all roles, it is society's way of labeling us nd keeping tabs on us.-- a statistical category.
rustedxemotions
Jun. 24th, 2016 01:34 am (UTC)
Hang in there.
*hugs*
bobby1933
Jun. 24th, 2016 06:55 am (UTC)
Thank you.
abendstille
Jun. 25th, 2016 05:31 am (UTC)
From where I'm at right now I see Krishna's advice like this: Seeing the world as an illusion isn't really the best way to put it, since if the illusion is realized, there is nobody any longer to "see it" as an illusion. In a way it's rather the dissolving of the separation between illusion and consciousness.
Once this has happened the manifested part of the Divine that acts like what was formerly called "Arjuna" will certainly continue with everything that needs to be done for this manifestation. It will continue as a part of the whole the way it always was, until its role is over and the manifestation dies.
bobby1933
Jun. 25th, 2016 01:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Mia. What you write seems right and i will ponder it.

I assume that the Bhagavad Gita had a human author. Therefore,to understand it i would have to know not only what the author wrote, but what the author wanted to write but could not.
vaporw
Jun. 25th, 2016 01:56 pm (UTC)
I agree with you. Ajune compliance is a bit odd isn't it?
bobby1933
Jun. 25th, 2016 02:19 pm (UTC)
Yes, the human author was not up to speaking for his noble and divine characters, and certainly not for Brahman. :)
o_laila
Jul. 2nd, 2016 03:15 am (UTC)
<3 i'm so very sorry for your loss, bobby.
bobby1933
Jul. 2nd, 2016 04:29 am (UTC)
*3 Thank you.

I am doing fine.
And from a Taoist perspective
loss does not exist;
and there were 55 years of gain.
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