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Update Update - Church

I went to five o'clock Mass tonight.  I knew it would be difficult tor me to go without Dianne.  (We were, after all "the team.)  My function was to push her wheelchair up to the altr for eucharist.  Whether or not i get anything else out of going did not matter.  Worship meant praying beside her.  I also espected that i would not be able to hear well and that i would have forgotten  much of the liturgy after two years

The last time we went to Church was almost  exactly two years ago.  It was at St. Paul's (?) in Idaho Falls.  The priest who gave the homily was, by happy coincidence, Dianne's favorite priest.  This very spiritually mature young Mexican man is, with the possible exception of Bob W.) the nearest thing to a mystic that i have come in close contact with; and his homily showed it.  The next day Dianne broke her hip and begin the final downward slide that ended last week.

So i read some Hildegarde von Bingen poetry, put on decent clothes, and drove to the church with the radio turned off.  I have learned that i have to prepare to worship, for the Roman Catholic liturgy does not inspire a worshipful attitude in this corrupted Protestant brain

It was good to be back; and i was able to worship,  despite the expected difficulties.  The downside was thaat i discovered why several of Dianne's closest friends were not at her funeral.  They were either dead or seriously ill or disabled.  Her closest friend at Church has been deep into Alzheimers during the  entire two years we have been gone.   Sometimes getting old really sucks.


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May. 29th, 2016 11:42 am (UTC)
I'm glad you could participate, get some questions answered and continue with something that meant a lot to Dianne. She was there as well and smiled :-)
May. 29th, 2016 02:58 pm (UTC)
Yes. Thank you Mia.
May. 29th, 2016 01:32 pm (UTC)
You are a good man.

I am glad you felt rewarded in fulfilling your promise.

There's so much in life to digest. We humans aren't very good digesters, I think because we want analysis to suffice and we want to be quick. May every bitter crumb be nourishing and fuel your growth.
May. 29th, 2016 03:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Mary Ann.
Yes, it is a function of our culture
to do things rapidly
Some things can't be done well rapidly.
That is why i do not like to see television programs about people for whom television is not part of their culture.
May. 29th, 2016 01:48 pm (UTC)
You will find it easier as time goes on to go to mass and honour your promise. I am very pleased you have done this for Dianne who, as Mia says, was certainly there by your side. Life changes but doesn't end is what I believe.
Worshipping is such a personal thing and however you do so is the best way.
May. 29th, 2016 03:04 pm (UTC)
Yes! Thank you, Donna.
May. 29th, 2016 02:07 pm (UTC)
....it really does suck getting older, I agree.
May. 29th, 2016 03:04 pm (UTC)
Yeah. :)
May. 29th, 2016 04:42 pm (UTC)
You are an inspiration, and yes, "sometimes getting old really sucks."

You express so beautifully, give us you and Dianne. I am touched.
May. 29th, 2016 10:05 pm (UTC)
((blushing)) Thank you,
May. 29th, 2016 10:06 pm (UTC)
Very moving story of your experience at church. You are always an inspiration to me.
May. 29th, 2016 10:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Jeff.
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