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I  prefer to write an essay on almost any subject to writing a personal letter.  Although life does not bore me, talking about it does; and i always fear that i am violating the privacy of those who share my life with  me.  As a person with autism i find it incomprehensible that most people would rather talk about people than about other topics.  But i know that my friends want to know how our live are (or are not) progressing.

It is especially hard  to talk about Dianne's health.  I worry about it.  She says that is because i am a worrier, not because her health is bad.  On the other hand, she is a very level person, a better Taoist than i am despite my great interest and her total lack of  it.  Every thing is always all right with her.  And while i  do not think that i give her anything near the care she needs; i give her much more than she asks for.  (Our doctor has discussed "end of life" issues with her).  But as time goes by, she needs a little more care and i am a little less able to provide it.

I have always been considered much younger than my chronological age. but my appearance is catching up with the reality by leaps and bounds.  The face in the mirror is an old man's face (and would be so even with a haircut and beard trim).  My arthroids are multipltying and the other day i found that i cannot do one push up.  I tell myself i need to get into shape, but the drive is not there.

At the same time, our amble toward the end has been very slow and casual.  I am never surprised to wake up in the (late) morning nor to see that Dianne is (often) breathing peaceably beside me.  She says not to worry; that she is going to be around for quite a while yet.

And we can always use your good thoughts, prayers, or positive energies.


( 7 comments — Leave a comment )
May. 8th, 2016 10:41 am (UTC)
You have my love and thoughts always- and God told me that those are prayer.

Thank you so very much for making the effort to do this update.
May. 8th, 2016 01:51 pm (UTC)
I was nodding while reading your post. Time marches on quickly, and eventually one find it marching across one's face. lol
May. 8th, 2016 05:08 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the personal update.

My thoughts are with you and Dianne.
May. 8th, 2016 07:40 pm (UTC)
Oh yes - both of you get lots of prayers!
May. 8th, 2016 10:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks, my friend. I often wonder how you're doing on a more personal level. You do have my good thoughts and a prayer...always.
May. 8th, 2016 11:43 pm (UTC)
Always thinking of you and those you love. Be well and peace and light to you both.
May. 9th, 2016 01:50 am (UTC)
Thanks for the update. I care, and you're in my prayers.

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