bobby1933 (bobby1933) wrote,

Getting read the spiritual riot act

Lately, I have been getting cranky; and especially so when I am interrupted at  journalling..  This was called to my attention Friday when I snapped at Dianne when she called for my help.   She reminded me of the story of how Cat Stevens, on his road to being Yusef Islam, became harder and harder to live with as his spiritual search intensified and suggested that there is something basically wrong with the way one is searching if that is happening.  She noted that I have been getting increasingly irritable over the past week, and I had to agree.

I remembered an old Robert Service rhyme from my childhood about a mother reading her Bible for guidance in raising her child.  When the child sought her attention, the mother snapped at her, explaining: I'm trying to learn how to be a loving mum.  Indeed, there is something wrong if the spiritual search makes one less compassionate, companionable, and caring about creation.

My posts will probably become rarer and more spontaneous, less intellectual, less argumentative, more humble.

I do want to  continue my comments on the Chuang-tzu on taoism , (at least through the first seven chapters), but these will come slower.and more irregularly.

Exchanging comments with acontemplatives  LJ community member, we agreed that it should be expected that if the members are truly into contemplation they will not be posting much.  Once you have noted how important silence is, how many more ways and times can you repeat that before it becomes part of the noise?

Our material progress here is even slower and more frustrating than my spiritual "progress."  I will, of course, continue to keep you informed about Dianne's gathering strength and resources.  Now she is on continuous flow oxygen  (three litres during the day, five at night)
The machine that provides continuous flow oxygen is heavy and decreases her mobility even more.  Her physical therapist is really good and I can see her making progress each time he works with her.

Peace, love and joy to everybody.
Tags: contemplation, personal life
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