Anyway i have been able to "unbundle" my phone from my internet connection. Both services are improved, and my bill(s) will be slightly lower, and, for the time being, i will not be going off line.
Other things are going slowly, and relatively well. Life is struggle, but so far not a meaningless nor "unsuccessful" struggle. I think my mind is becoming calmer, more able to stop thinking on command, more suited to a meditative state. I am also better able to interpret Dianne's silence as chosen and positive, rather than as a failure to respond or thrive. I am still here, for the time being anyway. Thanks to those who bid me bon voyage.
Love, peace, comfort, and joy to everyone.