Dianne fell while standing yesterday. She was uninjured, and our good neighbors A. and D. were able to lift her into her chair. Both legs are in braces to give her legs support, but her left ankle has recently been giving her trouble'; she literally has no control over it. We have restarted range of motion treatments after a lapse of nearly two years. Funny how good habits seem more easily broken than bad ones. She may have to ask for surgery to cut or lengthen a tendon. We hope not. In the meantime we are being very careful.
I am writing this at 6:30 a.m. I am usually sound asleep for two more hours; but i have been awake since 3:00. My mind tells itself that this is because i have been unable to unplug a toilet. It is common for me to worry unduly about trivia, so that is a believable story. I suspect that my mind is, as so often it is, mistaken. I think i am worried about our ability to continue to take care of ourselves and each other in our own home. Geneticaly, i should have another five or ten good years; but the fact is that i have lived a more careless life than most of my ancestors and my biological age is probably three to six years older than my chronological one,
One of these days, soon, my hit or miss interest in Buddhism and the mystical paths of other traditions will kick in and i will sleep soundly for as long as i need to (which may be as little as three to four hours) and be an excellent, alert, present, compassionate companion and helpmate the rest of the time., For now, however, i need the continued moral support of my LJ friends who are almost the only people i communicate with on a regular basis.