Dianne is watching "Judge Judy" which she likes and i dislike. I usually write in my journal after she is in bed. I intend to go to bed when she does tonight so i am using some of this time to write. Things are going well and easily today and i expect the rest of the day to be uneventful. Nurse and Occupational Therapist have come and gone, There is nothing on my agenda except attention and dinner. The latter will be as simple and easily prepared as possible.
Dianne's attention is focused on her brother's probable impending death, this forces my attention in that direction also. I got into what i consider a rancorous argument in which the "existence" or "nonexistence" of death was one of the sore points. There are certain biological, physical, and chemical changes, after which the "body" of what i take to be a person no longer emits stimuli that i am able to respond to. That "person" ceases, so far as i can tell, to breathe. The "life" appears to have gone out of him.
A friend asks if have "any notion of what happens after death." Of course i do. I have a lot of notions about a lot of things, including death. Bur in the sense that "notion" comes from the Latin word "know", absolutely i have no notion. But i do have many "notions"
One notion is that what happens after death depends on what kind of universe i live in and will die in. Is it essentially spiritual, material or something else. "Something else" leaves me with infinite notions and also nowhere.-- anything might be possible, anything might be impossible.
When i think in material terms, i think of force: the force of gravity, electro-magnetic force, weak nuclear force, strong nuclear force, force of arms, force of will, forces of nature, etc., etc. Do these forces affect a dead person as they affect a living person? Some probably do, others probably don;t There is a lot of evidence to suggest the the 29 billion + light year diamaterred known universe is just such a material place. Life and death are determined by the interplay of forces.
When i think in spiritual terms, i think of love: divine love, unconditional love, outpouring love, incarnate love, sacrificial love, etc., etc. In the East, there is a seemingly unrelated essence: non-duality. But are love and non= duality really unrelated. What causes our apparent separation from love is also what causes the illusion of duality. I "know" (i have a notion ) that my self is a separate entity different from other selves. What would i "know" if i did not have that notion?
After death i think i will (still) partake of that non-duality, but if there is no "i" will that experience be experienced. Will the "afterlife" be distinguishable from "death/" Do those concepts have any meaning in a non-conceptual universe? No wonder people believe in harps and wings and eternal weekend fish fries.