February 20th, 2015

Hospital, Day 12

Dianne was nauseous today as a result of a mouthwash she was instructed (unnecessarily) to swallow.  The word "iapathic" crossed my mind several times.  They are looking to release her but are urging a rehab facility rather than straight home.  This almost brings her to tears (and her tears bring me to tears).  She has been in some pretty good facilities and has hated them all.  No reason--it just ain't her thing!  But she did ask me to investigate some options.  I'm sure she will not want to leave the hospital against medical advice.  Still, all is good if we only knew it.

Answer for question 4248.

What are your thoughts on vaccinations? Do you personally believe they play any role in the development of autism or other chronic diseases? What diseases would you like to see a vaccine manufactured against over your lifetime?
I am autistic and i have no idea what caused it. I am pretty sure i had it before any vaccinations. The science is pretty clear on this: no causal relationship has been established and vaccines do prevent some sometimes deadly illnesses. If my personal opinion were different from that, i would probably keep it to myself.

In my fantasy world (and my life hasn't very many years left in it) i would like to see all serious medical conditions preventable, especially AIDS, Alzheimer's, Cancer. Parkinson's, and CFS.

Paramahansa Yogananda - Samadhi (Fragments)

Vanished the veils of light and shade,
Lifted every vapor of sorrow,
Sailed away all dawns of fleeting joy,
Gone the dim sensory mirage.
Love, hate, health, disease, life, death,
Perished these false shadows on the screen of duality.
Waves of laughter, scyllas of sarcasm, melancholic whirlpools,
Melting in the vast sea of bliss.
The storm of maya stilled
By magic wand of intuition deep.
"   Thou art I, I am Thou,
Knowing, Knower, Known, as One!
Tranquilled, unbroken thrill, eternally living, ever new peace!
Enjoyable beyond imagination of expectancy, samadhi bliss!...

"...Samadhi but extends my conscious realm
Beyond the limits of the mortal frame
To farthest boundary of eternity
Where I, the Cosmic Sea,
Watch the little ego floating in me.
The sparrow, each grain of sand, fall not without my sight....
"....Spotless is my mental sky, below, ahead, and high above.
Eternity and I, one united ray.
A tiny bubble of laughter, I
Am become the Sea of Mirth Itself.

-- from Whispers from Eternity, by Paramahansa Yogananda
Poetry Chaikhana | Paramahansa Yogananda - Samadhi

Hospital, Day 13

Dianne was still nauseaus most of the day as a result of swallowing the "wash" yesterday morning.  It was to treat Thrush, a yeastlike or funguslike coating of the tongue of highly medicated people (ot maybe its from breathing treatmentss).  I heard the nurse (?) tell her to "swish and swallow."  She had no trouble the first few days.

Today there were no new developments.  Dianne has resigned her self to the probability that she will have to spend some time in rehab facility.  We have a good one  picked out in case we are forced to make that choice.  I heard a horror story from a man whose wife is in a room down the hall.   I did not share the details with Dianne, but we both felt relatively lucky.  In hospitals one sees often the after effects of tragic and near fatal accidents and stupid human  tricks.  All will be well, all is well.  (I recall something i think i once read about Julian of Norwich, that she became a solitary after the bubonic plague wiped out her entire family  - i must read her biography to see if that is true).